i have always wanted to create something. i have taken on many incarnations: scrapbooker, jewelry maker, business owner, invitation maker, and the -er list could go on. i always start and never quite follow through. why? i know there are many reasons and i could spend the next three years explaining them, but i don't want you to leave so soon.
the one constant throughout my years has been taking photographs. my mom had a little 110 and took it everywhere. i love sifting through her photograph albums. when i was pregnant with emma, i knew i wanted to update my camera. digital was a big deal, but i was not ready to head in that direction, instead, i purchased a canon film camera. i took hundreds of rolls of film. some came out and some didn't. it was a guessing game.
that camera was stolen and i finally bought a nikon digital point and shoot. i thought i was big time. certainly i took pictures of the girls, but i realized i liked taking pictures of everything else too. 3 point and shoots later, tim bought me a Nikon D40 dSLR. now i really thought i was hot stuff. i shot everything on auto mode and it was still hit and miss whether the photograph would turn out. the quality and my composition had definitely improved, though.
with all that being said i knew deep down i really wanted to pursue this further than i had pursued anything before. for some reason i just couldn't bring myself to save the money or study to find out what all those fancy buttons on my camera could do. this past november it hit me like a bolt of lightening...i'm about to turn 36. isn't that half way to death? what have i done with my life? besides my beautiful family? well, the answer was, NOT MUCH. this is the moment i decided to do something for myself.
if you know me well at all, you know that i am no good with money. i can't save it. i'm usually squeezing my pennies the last few days before payday. i actually saved enough money in 3 months to purchase my new "professional" camera. paige anderson actually set a goal and met it. besides that, which i promise you is huge, i have studied my buns off to learn how to properly operate my camera. this is a way huge moment for me.
i'm not going to say i have talent, i'll leave that up to you guys to decide. i love doing this. i love the reaction a great photograph can bring. am i a professional? heck no! do i want to be? heck yes! am i learning? yes, everyday. i am nowhere near close to being where i want to be. but i am closer today than i was three months ago.
another reminder of why i want to do this:
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